Just for today, do not anger

This one has been a challenge for me this past week.  After over 13 years of faithful employment, I was laid off from a job last week.  It was done in a very cold way, but hence, that's the way of business I guess.

A part of me is thankful because this means new opportunities.  But a bigger part of me was feeling resentful, sad, angry, and very hurt.  So now as a Reiki practitioner, I go to the Reiki precepts and of course the one that sticks out the most at the moment is "Just for today, do not anger."  Whoa, that's gonna be a tough one.  But there is a reason why it says "Just for today" because we've got to take these things day by day.  It's more manageable that way.

After the initial shock and feeling all of those wonderful things mentioned above, I actually started to feel more positive.  There's got to be a reason for all of this.  A different plan for me.  I was really bought into those thoughts.  So at 4am this morning, why did I get hit with all of the sudden those memories of sitting in HR and so coldly being told that as of that day, I was no longer an employee there.  All of those bad feelings came back.  I couldn't shake them.  I lay there reliving them again and again thinking what I could have said if only I wasn't so shocked.  There's a reason why it's done this way.  It was bad.

Finally, I realize that I need to give myself Reiki right away and try to "breathe" out these bad feelings.  I could feel the Reiki and finally was able to fall back asleep.  I am so thanking to have Reiki available to me on demand as I believe that it really is helping me to let go of a lot of the negativity.  I was definitely having an emotional release today as a result and am beginning to feel better.  I trust that I will eventually be free of these negative emotions and will not hold onto them.  I will continue to work on that.